Ep. 1: Let's Create a Counter Dialogue.

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Welcome to my inaugural episode of You’re Here to Remember, an audio series through which I’ll share intuitive insights, practical applications of the spiritual and scientific laws of the Universe, and let you in on my (many many) beautifully messy life lessons. In this episode, I share how I went from terrified of speaking to how I can’t wait to talk about all the things with you!

• Transcript

  (0:00) Hey everyone, I'm Nanae. Welcome to my, as of yet, nameless audio series where I share my intuitive (0:08) insights and the messy stories and lessons from my own life. I've spent so much of my life (0:16) disregarding what I have to say.I used to think I didn't have any opinions. I've even said out loud (0:22) to people, I just don't have opinions on things. I don't know what I think about things.I don't (0:27) even know how to have my own opinions. I admired the people who could answer questions on the spot, (0:33) even think on the spot. If you asked me my opinion on something, especially in front of others, (0:38) like in a class, I had two go-to responses.I'd either freeze and go blank or get angry and (0:45) defensive. I spent much of my life hiding my voice, stifling my voice, criticizing my own thoughts and (0:54) opinions to a point where I felt like I don't even know how to have any opinions. But now, (1:02) now that I'm training my intuition and I'm strengthening my intuitive knowing, (1:07) I don't need to see any of this as a good opinion or a bad opinion.I just know it's truth now, (1:15) and I can say what I mean and mean what I say with no regrets because my intuition backs me. (1:23) Some people aren't going to agree with what I say, and I'm finally to a point where I can say (1:29) things that I believe in and that people aren't going to agree with, and I'm excited for that (1:34) because that means they're going to make me think outside the box even more. Their disagreements are (1:40) going to make me look for more evidence, conduct research, gather my own experiences, and look (1:45) in intuitively.I'm going to try to find the proof every which way I look. So I welcome that, (1:51) actually. I want people to say, that's fucked up, and here's why I think so.That's going to (1:57) make me look at my topic that I presented from a different lens and figure out different ways to (2:04) explain what is in my mind, and I love that. I love looking at the situation from all angles. (2:11) I used to believe that was a weakness of mine.I can see now that what I was really doing (2:18) was collecting all the angles, all the details first. I was actually collecting data so that (2:26) I could see the bigger picture of things and then share what I thought about the whole thing. (2:31) I was literally seeking the source perspective and source truth all along.Because my process (2:39) felt different than everyone else, I then believed that my process was wrong because (2:44) I couldn't throw out all the off-the-cuff comebacks. I felt like I'm wrong in all the ways, (2:52) and so I shouldn't have any opinions. I shouldn't say anything, and I'm going to stay silent.(2:56) That's no longer me. I have things to say. Ultimately, these audios, selfishly, it's for me.(3:03) I'm doing this for me because it feels like a radical next step for me as someone who stifled (3:10) everything, including my thoughts, my opinions, including my emotions, my experiences. I stifled (3:16) everything, my wants, my needs, everything. And now I'm to this point where I feel safe enough (3:25) with myself to share what I want to share, and that feels so radical to me.It feels like (3:35) I really am at a new place in life. I really have reached a new place in my development and my (3:41) growth. Here's another reason why I'm publishing these audios.Certain groups and people, (3:49) powerful people, have shaped the way that we think about things, the way that we think about (3:55) problems, the way that we think about illness, the way that we think about government, (3:59) and most devastatingly, the way that we think about ourselves. I'm seeing it all in a different (4:05) way now, and I want to share my intuitive insights because I'm going to go against the grain of what (4:13) is mainstream. I might rattle you a little bit.I actually get rattled all the time. I'm constantly (4:20) rattled by the things that I come up against, the things that are new concepts, the things that I (4:25) intuit, the things that come to me. So this is my invitation to you.Let yourself be rattled. (4:32) Mull it over. Think about it from different angles, and then come back to me and be like, (4:38) you know what you said? It resonated here, but it didn't resonate here, and here's why.(4:42) Let's actually have a dialogue because I think that's what's missing is we get spoon fed how we (4:49) should think and how we should talk and how we should act, and I want more of this rich dialogue (4:55) of, but why though? Let's get in touch with the inner child that was so curious, that wanted to (5:03) know everything about everything. We still have that. We still have that curiosity in us.It's (5:09) just been diminished because of how we've been told what to do and how to think. That curiosity (5:16) is still in us, and honestly, to me, it feels so fun to reconnect to and express it. It feels (5:23) exciting.It feels expansive. We can actually create something different for the world. (5:28) So let's create a conversation that is counter to what's out there, that's counter to what is (5:35) limiting us, that's counter to what's keeping us sick and sad and angry and dying.There (5:41) is an alternative when we reconnect to our intuitive brilliance and inner knowing, (5:47) and I know I was at a place where I was like, there's no way. There's no way. It's impossible (5:54) for anything different to come from this current reality, and if I dream of something different, (6:00) then that's just me being idealistic.I believed that everything is shit, everything is stuck, (6:06) and nothing can be changed, but that's no longer my truth. I want this to be a starting off point (6:13) so that you all can be like, oh my god, I can think of this situation in a different way. (6:21) I thought it was limited.I thought it was dead and done. I thought it was a dead end. No way.(6:26) This is what I want for you, that even one tiny word or one phrase from even just one of these (6:34) audios will propel you to go off on your own tangents, to have your own conversations, (6:40) and create brilliance in your own communities. That's what I want. That's what I want for all (6:46) of us.So can you challenge your own thought processes? Ask, where did this come from? (6:56) Why did I formulate this? Why am I spouting this? Why am I regurgitating this? Where did this come (7:02) from? Can you get down to that level of, it's not scrutiny, it's exploration and curiosity. It's (7:10) why do I think the way that I think? Why do I think that if I get a physical ailment, (7:17) I have no power to change it unless the doctor tells me how to. And if the doctor tells me I (7:23) can't do it, then I'm just going to be stuck with it for the rest of my life.That's not true. As I (7:30) grow and develop my intuitive skills in how I understand the universe and how it works, (7:35) I'm going to share intuitive insight on the fact that the things you have felt are removable that (7:42) you can't get unstuck from, they can actually change. They can actually be healed and can (7:48) actually be made unstuck.And finally, I just want to express my gratitude and being your therapist (7:57) and being your intuitive. Oh my God, the growth that I get to experience from doing this work (8:04) with you, it's just, it's beyond words. It's beyond words.The gratitude that I have for this (8:11) is beyond words. You don't even know how much I get to grow alongside you being your therapist (8:17) and intuitive. Like you are, you are doing me a service.Honestly, I just feel so freaking honored (8:24) that I get to do this every day and expand and grow with you too. So let's see where this takes (8:31) us all. Okay.All right. I'll catch you in the next one.